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Yesterday,while I'm studying 4 my last mid term,PM,suddenly penguin monkey nudge me.
He said he had read my blog n noe tat I'm not happy.
He tell me his story,he oso facing d problem wif his group members.Tell me tat his problem more serious than mine.
I noe actually he was trying 2 comfort me after read my blog,if not he won't tell me d problem he is facing.It is bcoz usually v juz bluffing in msn,seldom chat serious topic.But yesterday his 1st sentence is asking bout my blog,not calling me d long long nickname tat he create 4 me.I noe he is concern bout me.Although v hv never meet or talk b4,juz using msn typing,but he oways gv me moral support 2 me,help me solve my problems,oways make me smile when I'm upset.Really tq 2 him.
After chatting wif him,my mood bcum better...Hehe^_^
I'm very lazy 2 study PM,coz all d contents I hv oledi learn in Sejarah n PA b4.Y need study again???Really wasting my money n time lo.Tis sub should b given 2 those who fail in PA or did not take PA.When i read through,mostly I oso noe oledi,juz lazy 2 memorize it coz tat time after exam,I "pulang"2 my teacher liao.I juz skimming n scanning...Haha...Then if dunno ans,juz bring my gun n "tembak".
When exam,d question act not very tough,but d ans very confusing...Oways need make a choice between 2 ans...So juz depend on my 6 sense lo...When d result cum out,sure die...
Anyway,test pass oledi...No need tink so much,enjoy 4 a while.Hehe...

iZit mY pRoBl3m???

2day,i'm very unhappy...Dunno wat went wrong...
Last sat,i ask (A) 2 send me or save a copy of d photos n videos tat she hv 4 me on mon,but she din reply me.So 2day morning,i go ask her whether she got save or send 2 me anot...

Xiew Jiun : Did u received my msg on sat tat i ask u 2 send or save a copy of d photos 4 me?I din receive any reply from u.
(A) : I oso dun save it 4 myself,I'm very busy,got a lot of things 2 do.(seems like yelling at me coz her voice at tat time quite loud n her tone not so good)
Xiew Jiun : Then nvm lo.When u free can send or copy it 2 me?
(A) : I'm very busy.Sorry 2day my mood not so good.
Xiew Jiun : ...(go bek 2 my place)

Although ur mood not good,but u shouldn't yelling at me ar...
I'm not d 1 who make her mood not so good de,I'm not d doll tat she gv vent to...
I tell myself dun b so stingy,should understand her,mayb she got a lot of stress leh.
Afternoon,v discuss assignment 2gather.
Nobody talking,n looks so serious.I'm so 无厘头,try 2 tell a joke.

(A) : Y u try 2 mention tat things???Tats no related wif it.(tone not so good)
Xiew Jiun : ...(nothing 2 say)
(A) : Do u noe tat u r juz talking nonsense???(louder her voice,sum ppls look at us)
Xiew Jiun : ...(still nothing 2 say,coz i'm juz kidding,dunno y bcoz serious thing???)
(A) : @#$%&(Still talking bout tat topic but i dun remember wat she said)
Xiew Jiun : ...(I'm juz still keep quite,afraid quarrel wif her)

I din ans or argu wif her,coz i tink tat kidding was not a fault.N i dun tink I'm wrong,lazy 2 explain oso...If my frens really understand me,no need explain oso noe me.
If she dun like,juz ignore it,y blame on me???I remember there is a scene in "I"m not stupid"
Terry's mother : How many times u wan me 2 tell u...Dun care other ppl things...U c,4 nothing,u're scolded by other pp
I'm oso d same...Juz try 2 tell a joke,but 4 nothing,I was scolded by her...Haiz....
Am I 2 sensitive???Seems like she dun like me,when I'm trying 2 talk,all oso band.
D same thing cum out from others mouth can b accept...Izit my problem???I dunno how 2 express myself well???
I try 2 ask PF n HC is tat my problem???They juz said mayb her mood bad n juz put her vent on me...If really lidat,then i tink she is quite emotional lo.Coz i saw her can joke wif (C).
Sumtimes I feel very hard when discuss assignment wif her,coz she dun understand wat I'm trying 2 tell,but PF n HC can understand,usually help me explain more.Izit my problem oso???
I dunno,I'm juz wanna say wats on my mind,is tat oso wrong???Or I'm 2 direct n hurt ppl tat sumtimes i dun realise???If u r really my fren,should can understand I'm wat kind of ppl n b considerate of me.I wanna find sum1 2 talk bout my 2day's feeling,but din find sum1 who can listen 2 me...So i juz write it down in order 2 comfort myself...So cham...

想念的滋味。。。

今天天气都阴凉，一个人呆在家，不知道做什么才好。要考试了，应该读书，却不知怎么的，没有心情，就只是躺在床上，什么也不做，也不想动，也没有睡意，就只是那样躺着，等着时间的流逝。忽然，想要看看张小娴的散文。其中一篇，叫做“想念的滋味”。。。

曾经有人问：你知道想念的滋味吗？
我想，我是知道的。可是，你是说甜的那种，还是苦的那一种？
相思的思念是甜的，即使因为见不到面而苦苦思念，也是甜美的。
单思的思念，却是苦的。
无论你多么想念他，他也不会再那么想念你了。
想念一个人，是多么无助的一种滋味。
我们想念的，是曾经那么想念一个人的滋味。

看了这篇散文，让我很有感触。曾经何时，我也非常想念他，甚至不惜一切代价，想尽办法拉长与他相处的每一刻。然而现在，我已经忘记了想念的滋味。是我太久没有找到值得让我想念的人吗？还是我已经懒得去想念某人？有时候，我在想，为什么会有想念这东西存在，虽然它是抽象的，但却确实存在每个人的心中。想念有时候真的很折磨人，可不可以把它拿掉？有人用工作来麻醉自己，以为就可以把它拿掉，却不知到头来，它还是存在，尤其是夜阑人静的时候。想念是拿不掉的，它永远存在每个人的心中，只是我们暂时把它遗忘在心里的某个角落。看回自己以前写的日记，发现自己是很愚蠢的。曾经因为一个不值得的人想念到哭泣，还不敢让人知道， 就连在回去工作的巴士上， 控制不住，无声落泪。对我来说，想念从来都是苦的，就连在恋爱中的思念都是苦的。因为它害我无法快乐地入睡，快乐地过日子。想念对现在的单身的我来说没有什么特别的意义，没有人让我想念，而我也不想要想念某人。或许某天我会怀念他，而不是想念他。

mY bIrThdAy oN 4 oF mArCh

sO mAnY Fr3ns f33dInG m3,v3rY v3rY"BAHAGIA"

aLl mY bIrThDaY gIfTs...

y mOsT oF mY fR3nS lOv3s 2 bUy dOlL 4 m3???

aLmOsT 3v3rY y3aR i gOt 1 dOlL,n3xT y3aR pLz dUn bUy DoLl 4 m3 aGaIn...

mY fAc3 "mAk3 uP" bY sUm1 n April f33dInG m3 a sOuR StRaWb3rRy

sAy cH33sE wHil3 cUtTiNg mY iC3-Cr3aM cAk3

fInAlLy tIs iS d LaSt cAnDl3...

fOrTuNaT3Ly i oNlY gOt 3 cAnDl3s,

iF tIs iS mY 19 y3aRs oLd bIrThdAy,sUr3 i wAnNa cRy...

h3h3...mY bIrThDaY cAk3 n m3...

yUmMy...(^_^)

Hmmmm...mAk3 a wIsH3s

i hOp3 2...(shhh...s3cR3t)

hApPy bIrThDaY 2 mYs3lF...

nIc3 pOs3...@_@

h3y...Han Chiun,dUn TrY 2 SnAtCh mY mIc,TiS iS mY sHoW l3h...

wA...Zhen Yi sO eNjoY hIms3lF

mY cOuRs3mAt3s...dUnNo y tH3y pOiNtInG aT hOcLiCk^_^

I'm 1 year older liao...Oledi reach 21 years old,should be more mature,but somehow i still look a bit childish...haha@_@

I should be happy when ppl said me looks like young or I should be sad when ppl said like this coz I'm not mature enough???Am I contradict myself???

However,this year I have a great birthday party compare to last year when i celebrated at genting...Most of my coursemates attended my birthday party accept those who not free to join.

After my birthday party,bout 12.15am,I receive 1 msg from PK.(My secondary schoolmate

PK :Happy Birthday

Xiew Jiun:Hey, Ms Yip,my birthday is over oledi,wat time now???

PK :Not over 12am is ur birthday meh?

Xiew Jiun:My birthday is 4 of March la...Now is 5 of March.

PK :Ya meh?I thought is 5 of March leh. Can u accept my late wishes?

Xiew Jiun:Of course can la...Since u never wish me b4,tis year u remember 2 wish me leh.

I should b very grateful.But plz make sure next year u won't do d same mistake again.

PK :Sure...Next year I'll wish u on d correct day.

After tat,I receive another birthday.Y they thought my birthday is 5 of March???

My birthday so easy 2 remember,34.

Y they wan separate it 2 35???SO weird...

but tis is better than last year,i received birthday msg on 3 of April.

Omg...still d same situation,not only 1 fren thought tat day was my birthday,another fren oso make d same mistake,izit my birthday 2 hard 2 remember???

Anyway,thanks 2 all of my frens who wishes me happy birthday...